Who, what and why

My name is Meredith and I’m an addict.

I’m addicted to making my life better. I’m addicted to helping other people lead happier lives. I’m addicted to life.

But that wasn’t always the case. I used to be addicted to food, alcohol, cigarettes, and shopping.

See, up until 6 months ago, I had lived my entire life being depressed, anxious, lonely, and hopeless. At best. I often wished I would die. I knew I wasn’t living, but I didn’t even know what that word meant anymore.

I decided to give myself one last chance. I was going to start from scratch. I was going to move out of my home, away from my husband and children, and I was going to do what I always wished I had done. I was going to make it on my own. I was going to be my own person, with my own goals, my own schedule, my own everything. I was going to be fucking happy. And if I couldn’t be happy on my own, then I could die.

Well…I didn’t move out of my house and I didn’t live on my own. I did however become my own person. I found my goals. I found myself. And I’m fucking happy. Deliriously, wonderfully, beautifully happy.

This blog is my memory of a time gone by, my triumphs in the world I now know, and everything in between. I hope that within the words I write, you might find the inspiration to give yourself one last chance. So long as you give yourself one last chance again and again and again, you’ll find your happy ever after. I never thought it would happen for me. Not in a million years. but here I am. An addict.

Addicted to changing lives, starting with my own.